Am I Sulking or Praying?
Do you ever find that your prayers look more like a long, drawn-out list of all the things wrong with your little world? Sometimes I find myself sulking and whining instead of praying to the Lord. Asking Him to just make the issue I’m facing go away. Instead of asking Him to resolve it and to teach me how to navigate through it, I sulk and whine about it. Wondering when I will get the answers and if I can accept what His answer will be. Will I step out in faith and trust Him? Will I have the confidence to allow my faith to be seen even when I don’t know the outcome? When I’m focused on me, I am afraid to step out in faith and believe He will complete what He has started in me.
The beauty comes when we stop looking at ourselves and start focusing on Him. Do you, like me, tend to worry about things that are out of your control? Do you ever feel you might have the confidence to handle this one on your own, only to realize that you don’t? One of the things I love about God is that He will wait for us. As I sit and whine or pout about my troubles, He is there the whole time, but if I am not sincerely bringing my cares to Him through prayer, I find my heart is not humble before the Lord. He knows the outcome from the beginning to the end. Even as I fret, He knows and gives me His word to remind me where I need to lay all my doubts…
“In quietness and confidence will be your strength…” Isaiah 30:15
He’s not telling me to be the one to fix it. He is not saying I am confident in who I am or my own strength. He is saying in quietness and confidence in Me, trust Me and wait patiently on Me. In quietness – prayerfully without whining. In confidence – in Him and His faithfulness. Being confident that He, the Creator of me, is working on my behalf to complete what I started in you. He never said pain free. He never said easy. Here He is telling me “in quietness and confidence shall be your strength”. Trusting in Him is from where I draw my confidence, then I will have strength to bear whatever lot I am to face. My strength is in knowing God has got this. He will lead me and guide me.
Looking at how and what we pray will help us remember prayer life isn’t approaching God as a genie in a bottle. Our prayers are not wish lists or demands for God to fix the things or people in our life. Prayer is for me to surrender the areas in my life that I’m holding on too tight. The areas that I need to grow and become more like Jesus. The areas I need to trust more and have faith that His plan is perfect.
Prayers hold me accountable to trust God as I lay things at the feet of Jesus. What I am doing is surrendering to Jesus and trusting whatever He chooses to do or not to do. When I sulk instead of pray, I’m not really giving it to Him. I’m holding on to it. I’m saying, “Lord it’s not fair! Why me? Why this?” When I accept that I need to go to Him with all the details of my life, I am allowing my faith in the truth I believe in to play out. That’s when I see Him work. The prayer may or may not be answered they way I want, but while I’m in prayer I know I’m surrendering to Him that thing, that thorn in my side, that heartache that I just can’t bear one more day.
So this moment I choose to surrender. I choose to pray and live out my faith because when I do, I Have His perfect peace.
“He will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You because he trusts in You.” Isaiah 26:3
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made know to God and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
“ His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence.” 2 Peter 1:3
As we go about our day, let’s lift each other up in prayer that we will surrender whatever we are facing today with assurance in Who we have by our side and trust His plan, even when it’s hard.
God bless, xo,